Greeting from my new home...the hospital. no baby yet!! Hopefully she stays put!

Well here we go again. I guess I will become a real blog expert since here I sit in the hosptal on bedrest. DeJaVu! This post will mainly be informational so I can get on paper so I won't forget this lovely experience. Someday I need to print off my blog. I guess the tables have turned a liitle from my last blog post. All along I have been watched carefully every 2 weeks by the doctor. At the beginning of October about 23 weeks my cervix had shortneded a little and I was feeliing heaviness and tightness in my belly. Same feelings I felt with Rocco. You never know whats normal because being pregnant your body does all sorts of things. My dr said to start to rest. The next week my cervix shortened a little more still at an ok range but I was contracting during the ultrasound. My Dr was more specific about being off my feey. No more than 45 minutes up and at least an hour down. Luckily after this order my mom flew in for a fun fall trip which turned into only one outing to the pumpkin patch for an hr and atrip to 30 minute trip to Michaels. She was so helpful in keeping me down and managing the house. Not the trip we had planned. I was so sad to see her leave and nervous about how to take care of Rocco and life. I went to the Dr that day she he leftand my cervix had shortened again. So from the Dr again said you really need to get off my feet. Well its easier said the done although I sat from my recliner for the next week giving Roco orders and only getting up for breakfast and lunch. Poor Rocco. I just sat and cried watching the little guy all alone playing and wanting me sit and play and I couldn't. We didn;t get to go on our usually outings.Iknow kids are resilient but it still breaks my heart. JonDavid thought about every scenario about how we can get this to wokr because baby can not come out 25 weeks is too early. We thought about day care, churhc help....The next week our ward was so helpful in finding loving homes for Rocco to go play at. We are so thankful for everyones kindness. We have had some meals brought in and it has been so helpful. Its humbling to ask for help and I truly feel grateful for the love people have gave our family. Well at my appt this week on wed. I actually took Rocco to a friends to play.. He had been tagging along because he does fine but I knew this appt was going to be alittle more intense with extra test...So I went on Wed and I never got to go back home!!!!!!!! My cervix had shortened almost 1cm in one week and I was at 2.8, with contractions, ad funneling...not good signs. I cried...this was way too familiar. All I know is if we cn get this baby a few more weeks it would really be great. Rocco was at 29 weeks, So we scurried to find somewhere for Rocco to sleep. This was the 3rd house he had gone to in one day. What a trooper... He is a little confused. THey checked me in started me on medicine to relax my contractions, steroids for the babies lungs, rhogam shot, fluids, antibiotics for group strep b along with all sort of monitors arond the belly. Well its been almost 3 days. My cervix had shortneded a litte from wed to thursday now at 2.58 last measurement, I'm so blessed little sister is looking healthy inside and weighing about 2.1 which is good. Rocco was only 2.9 at 29 weeks. So if she stays put she will likely be a bigger sister than he was. They put a pump on me like an insulin pumpl that will continually give me medicain to relax my uterus it makes me super shaky and my heart race. But it was wawy better than getting a shot every few hours. Anyways it saturday and I'm still sitting. I don't have tons of contractions just constant uterine irritablility of contractin and getting soft over and over. Its all painless bu its enough action its causing my cervix tochange. So hoefully with my pump and bed rest we can sit a little longer. I'm so thankful for my docotr she has been so vigilant and maybe getting the eidcal care I need this can hold off. Tme will tell. Grandma Sparks was gracious enough to fly out today to hlep for two weeks. We both just felt really really overwhelmed about the next 2 weeks and feel like thes 2 weeks are huge for baby growth . This brought ahuge weight off my sshoulders when she said she could come, I think it will be very good for ROcco. He has been struggling with this. It's hard for him. So I know he will love to have grandma hold him since he ls scared of me. It made me cry when he came to thehospital to see me and he looked strainght and the wall andwould not lok at me. I make him nervous. He finally cracked up when I got up to bathroom and he realized mom had lost her underpants. Sinec these gowns expose your whole back sde. He's coming around... I hope this makes sense. I am going to keep updating this. It gives me an actiivit to keep me busy. Off to my breakfast. I may be granted a shower today. I hope so because I feel super stinky and greasy. My hair does not lok so hot after not showering for a day!!Thanks for your love!!